Some things I have realized or re-realized within the last few days:
1. I really like going to church. It hasn't always been easy to enjoy the service while keeping little kids entertained, but I like the act and process of going to church. I always feel better after having gone and most times, I come away feeling that I learned something important. I enjoy the lessons, the conversations, and the feeling I have when I'm there.
2. I have a wonderful husband. William is just good to the very core. There is nothing about his character that I would change, even if I could. He is a great example to me in many ways and it truly is a miracle that we found each other. I am so lucky!
3. Our kids have turned a corner, especially Abraham and Annabelle. As busy as the beginning to this school year has been, it occurred to me that they are really thriving at home, at school, and at primary. Everything used to be a "battle". I used to have to "gear up" for absolutely everything where they were concerned---having to talk them into going to primary, or getting their backpacks ready for school. Now, they pretty much do what needs to be done, and they like it.
4. Our kids are learning the gospel---it is becoming a part of who they are. I began to notice this last year and I'll be honest---it was surprisingly difficult for me. It brought me face to face with my own testimony and I spent a lot of time, energy, thought, and emotion asking myself if this is what I really wanted. William was a tremendous help to me through this, but it really was a very personal journey, as well. I wondered: Could I really look them in the eye and say that I knew there
was a God? Could I tell them I really believed we would be together forever? Did Mommy really believe all those things they were singing about in primary? It was a difficult time for me, as I knew I should have been happy, but instead just felt this burdensome, yet profound, responsibility to make sure I wasn't just telling them what I hoped was true. Now, I feel peace. I don't have the answers to everything I wish I did, but I love that they love the gospel and I see it bringing joy into their lives and into our lives, as well.
5. We don't need to buy diapers or pull-ups anymore! Annabelle pointed this out to me the other day and it was an awesome realization. I have been changing diapers and potty-training for years, and years, and years without a break. I am deeply grateful that I am done with that! And Yeah to Alex for being really, really advanced when it comes to potty training. He just turned 2 in March and already stays dry all night. Go Ping Ping!
6. I really love my sisters, and I miss them! Nobody knows your history like family and my sisters and I have overcome a lot--individually and as a family. We have bonds that cannot be broken and I am grateful for them---and for Shaleen, Jay, and Scarlet. I can't wait to see them all next summer.
7. Even though I'm exhausted quite often these days, I have got to hold on to the personal dreams and goals that I have, or once had. There are projects I have started that I'd like to get back to. There are goals I'd once thought about that haven't yet materialized. I know there is a time and season for everything, but I feel like I need to at least re-visit some personal goals.
8. I really appreciate good writing. I have such respect for strong writers and the messages they are able to convey. I'm so grateful that the world has all types of people, but lately I find I'm really grateful for creativity.
9. I am really excited to go to Disneyland! We are heading there this week and I cannot wait to experience this with William and our precious kids. Hoping for good weather, hassle-free travel, and fun!!
Well, this was a random post, but that's the beautiful thing about blogging. Anything goes. I have a lot to be grateful for and I love staying in touch with all of you through our blogs. Have a wonderful week!